Go Gently

Go gently

Into the depths

Exploring with compassionate inquiry and wondering curiousity

Hold still

Breath Deeply

Deeper

Touch the core of the wound

Embrace the cascade of flowing energy

Pace myself

Allow myself to linger

Surrounding myself with the gentle stillness

And I shall stay as long as I like.

Then, moving forward, ever so slowly

Into a deeper realm

One which is untouched

One which hasn’t been opened in a long time, if ever

One which is groaning under the weight of being buried

There.

Pause, right there.

Feel that?

That is the hurt which has been covered up

By shame and guilt and anger

That is the pain of rejection

……..the cruelty of separation

……..the loss of innocence

……..the agony of not feeling worthy or loved

……..the betrayal of abandonment

That is the vulnerable exposition of my soul

Where darkness has resided, where it’s made its home

I have built and impenetrable fortress

Where light has been snuffed out time and time again

Leaving only cold darkness and shivering memories.

I touch that forlorn space with my inner voice.

I try to speak of hope

I try to coat it with courage

I try to coax it with love to come forth into the light.

Gentleness

Meets the resistance

It slowly begins to melt the fear

And, it ever so subtly shifts the firm foundation

Imperceptibly

Just enough to allow a sliver of light shine inward

Touching and embracing the essence

Of my parched soul.

This time, the light is welcomed rather than shunned

It promises warmth rather than the coldness of isolation

It gently beckons.

Safety is felt

Sacred space opens

Healing enters

And I am met by God’s loving embrace.

Here I am, Lord.

And He replies, “You are mine. Welcome home”.

Written on 12/21/2021